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Friday, 23 December 2011

Bagai meludah ke langit

Ya, betul apa orang cakap.
Kita jangan kata sangat kat orang.
Cermin dulu diri sendiri.
Baik buruk perangai kita.
It is not that I want to make a story about my friend.
It is about a lesson to me.
Jangan sesekali mengata orang lebih-lebih.

Dia mengata orang bertepuk tampar dengan lelaki, apa bezanya jika dia sendiri bergelak ketawa dengan lelaki.

Dia mengata perangai orang buruk, apa kurangnya jika kau pun sama.

Dia mengatakan bahawa seseorang itu jatuh hati pada rakannya sendiri, apa bezanya walhal kau sendiri pun sama suka jika lelaki mendekati kau.

Aku sendiri kadang-kadang sakit hati dengan perangai kau.
Aku tak kisah, serius tak kisah if kau nak aku tolong printkan kau punya assignment, but if EVERY assignments for the whole semester kau suruh aku print tanpa kredit apa-apa, then that's it!! Kau anggap aku tempat kebajikan. Memang mula-mula aku tak ambil bayaran, tapi aku sendiri sengkek bila assignments group pun aku kena print siap tape segala lagi.

Come on, people.. 
Ya, maybe orang cakap perniagaan akhirat.
Tapi ini setiap kali berlaku.
Dah kau tu students, please.
Printer tu penting. Macam laptop jugak.

Astargfirullah...

Jahatnya aku..Tapi aku punya perasaan. Aku sendiri pun tak tergamak nak menggunakan harta orang lain. Kalau aku guna pun, aku akan hulur x kisah lah berapa nilai pun. 


Untuk menghargai sebab dah menolong aku.


Thursday, 22 December 2011

Why must now?

Why must now you tell me? Why not telling me earlier?
I am going home..
Those things must be submitted tomorrow and now you're just telling me at this time?
Ow man, can't you think?
It is AN ASSIGNMENT.
Mane boleh buat main-main. And you expect I can do that in a night?
Man, you've got to be kidding me..
I am not a multitasking person. I am singletasking person.



And I am not gonna do it,until I'm done with mine.


Damn it.

Motif sangat, pagi-pagi macam nie, aku dah moody sakan. Lepas kuiz, terus aku mcm switch off mood kegirangan aku, then aku jd macam nak marah orang semua. Macam nak kata shit kat semua orang. Even kawan aku yang rapat tu mintak teman dia pergi library sebab nak bayar denda, aku macam haiiihh, menyusahkan..

What happened to me? I am not like this before. The person that always moody just not so me. Now, kena bertungkus lumus untuk assgment second last. Media Politik which is I know nothing.
I just want to let it out. I just want to cry.

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

Ini Sedih

Ya, ini serius sedih..Bukan sengaja mahu mencari perhatian..Tetapi ini sudah cukup untuk aku ber'mood' tidak baik hari ini. Dari pagi sampai ke petang.
Biarlah aku listkan..
  • Pertama sekali, bila nak pegi print something, tetiba nampak one of my classmates ciplak idea kami. FINE!
  •  Secondly, bila one of my groupmate lupa print our thing. OK,FINE AGAIN.
  • Thirdly, kami down sebab tgk org lain punya lagi lawa dan gah. Sumpah,kami down sangat-sangat.
  • Forthly, group yang ciplak idea kami present dahulu, so, dammit, it seems like we're the one who copying their ideas.  
  • And the biggest one is when the group who copying your ideas is the one who got the appreciation from those lecturers.
Itu dah cukup untuk aku balik bilik dengan takde perasaan dan terus masuk bilik lipat kain, kemas katil, kemas kertas semua, lepas tu aku baring dan menangis.
 
Sometimes, we hard to accept loses.
I am the one. 

Sunday, 18 December 2011

Perasaan Itu

Perasaan itu...
Kenapa masih wujud walau aku tahu aku takkan pernah menjadi milik dia..Kenapa perasaan itu tidak ada pada orang yang aku bersama sekarang...Kenapa perasaan itu masih pada dia? Walhal, dia langsung tidak tahu...
Dan untuk apa dia mengetahui perasaan itu,
Kerana ruang kosong di hatinya telah diisi oleh orang lain..
Yang lebih layak..Hilangkan lah rasa ini..kerana perasaan ini, aku telah mengabaikan orang yang menyayangi aku..

Ya, memang aku menyayangi orang yang menyayangi aku itu..
Tetapi, mengapa, tiap kali aku berhubungan dengan dia, perasaan itu masih ada walaupun sudah beberapa tahun lamanya....

Aku tidak mahu selingkuh...Tuhan tolonglah...

Thursday, 15 December 2011

I am right.

Seriously, I am right.
Proved today.
Key chain free given.
Me? No importante. Just like a statue in the class.
Good. 

Right now, I'm pissed of with my senior. She is one of the members in our group for a course. She likes to act like she's the leader. She loveeeesss to give us her order to do this, and to do that. And what she's doing? Keep complaining and keep on blabbering.
Shut Up Please!!!!!!! I hate you!

I'm mad.

It's 0157 am.

Yes, it is 1.57 am now. And I'm still drowning with those assignments.My friend, Yani still not sleeping. Doing her thing on Rakan Muda thingy. Poor she. She almost done the poster, but suddenly she accidentally press the delete button. Oh Allah, I don't know what I am supposed to do if I am on her situation. Damn. After spending 2-3 hours on that, and yet you have to do it BACK!!!

Haiihh, why the assignments won't be less...Why must they burden us with loads? Just give few and it would be fine to both side actually.
Okay, I should continue writing now.

Tuesday, 13 December 2011

Today is Tuesday

Today was a disaster.
Two presentations which is I'm not ready at all..
And the result is SUCKS man...really sucks.
Public Opinion slides that made by me last night was totally garbage. Tak tahu la kenapa. Ikah cakap maybe sebab ada antara member of the group tak nak terima pendapat orang lain. Sebab tu jadi macam gitu. And and I was down because the other group title was awesomee. The use of KTM among UKM students.
Is'nt that a brilliant case study made by them?
Seriously, Im down.Really.
The second one is the presentation of Kaedah Penyelidikan Komunikasi which is the lecturer for today is Dr. Chang. I am a little bit surprised because he brought a stopwatch and a bell with him. Damn it, he was strict.  If he said that he spares only 12 minutes for a group consisting 8-10 PEOPLE to speak about their journals and make some overall conclusion. WE CAN'T COMPLETE ALL THE SLIDES!!!!

Oh my, why must this happens to me...And yet, after my presentation, Ikah and I sneak out from the class. Go back to hostel. We cannot accept that we are NOT doing good for today. We know that we can do better than that.

I am sad.
7 assignments to go.
Allah saves me..
Amin.
 

Sunday, 11 December 2011

Again

Take note, people. I, myself don't know this is for the last or not? Or maybe it will be deleted again?
What I know is, I want. The desire to write, the desire to write something that happened in my rough life. SERIOUSLY!
I'm a little bit disappointed to MYSELF, not because of somebody else. Because of me, for trusting him for too long. While I did'nt know is, 

I HURT MYSELF ALL THIS WHILE FOR KNOWING AND LOVING A PERSON LIKE YOU.